Thursday, January 28, 2010

Four Years

Today is Mikias's Gotcha Day.  All day I have been thinking of those first moments of meeting my first son.  He was nervous, Kurt and I were nervous too.  What if he cried, ran away from us or was indifferent toward us?   He was so beautiful and so tiny,  he looked younger than his 4 1/2 years. I crouched down to say hello and hugged him.  He hugged me back....softly, tentatively.  I picked him up and felt him wrap around me, arms around my neck and legs around my waist, so tight.  I remember exactly what I thought; if anyone ever hurts you I will make them suffer before I kill them.  I was completely in love with my new son.

It is hard to believe 4 years have gone by.  It is also hard to remember that he hasn't always been ours, that the first half of his life was spent on the other side of the world, and we were unaware of each other's existence.  In order for us to find our way to each other, life had to take many twists and turns.  I realize that a series of events, many of them springing from terrible loss, made this little boy our son.  A child we would never have known,  we now get to watch grow into a man.  I am the luckiest woman I know.

For me today is about remembering and being thankful.  For Mikias it is about the cake I will bake, his favorite dinner that I will prepare (corn chowder) and his Gotcha day gift.  He didn't want to wait until tonight  for his gift, he asked if he could open it first thing this morning, and we agreed.  He was hoping for one special thing...and he was not disappointed.  His greatest wish came true, he is now the proud owner of a Jeff Gordon NASCAR jacket.

Four years ago, he was wearing a Mickey Mouse sweatsuit over a Hawaiian shirt owned by the orphanage he was living in.  This morning he hopped on the school bus wearing his Jeff Gordon jacket and feeling cool.

Today we celebrate.


  1. I already know most of these stories, yet they still make me cry when I read them here. I love hearing them all over again.
    Happy Gotcha Day, Miki!

  2. Beautiful Alison. Brought a tear to my eye. I'm so happy for Mikias and you and the entire family. God bless you. Mikias looks great in his jacket. Make suer he stays away from race cars for a little longer! BK

  3. He looks adorable in his jacket! I am now on the hunt for Jeff Gordon things! Happy Gotcha Day Mikias!! Bug hugs and kisses from all of us here in Nascar country. xoxo Bethe

  4. I love the photo of you and Mikias in his Mickey Mouse outfit. You can see the love in your eyes. It's priceless. :)

  5. Awesome gift, Alison. He looks great. Glad he had such a great day, and such wonderful parents. You guys rule.

  6. Ya know Im sure it does not seem like that long ago Does it? You guys LOOK GREAT and Im sure you had a great Gotcha Day Im so proud to have you as my Sister. P.S Jeff Gordon is good Love the coat But Im a Tony Stewart fan. The Bets are on for the upcoming season!

  7. What a handsome young man Mikias has become! He looks so proud in his new jacket! Congrats on 4 incredible years together. Thank you for sharing your story (I've read every post. I've laughed, I've cried...)It has been very encouraging as I begin my journey of adoption. Many blessings to you and your beautiful family!
    Carolyn in CA

  8. I love the photo of you with Miki. Both of your expressions are so happy and perfect :)
    I'm behind on reading your blog so I'm doing some catching up haha